I received a request for something a bit more substantial than “just a quote,” and another for something more, “I don’t know, about butterflies or what you did in Australia. Something happy.”
Right, okay. Butterflies. Happy…
So I sat down, opened up a new document, and took a bite of my apple…
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Mushy apples, wet peanut butter, cigarette smoke.
Caged animals, plastic straws, tree stumps.
Distended bellies, oppressed souls, false hope.Hiccups, parking tickets, splintered wood.
Sirens, screeching brakes, raised fists.
Apathy, the sound of pain, someday I should…You deserve the best, cold feet, flights home.
Broken promises, resignation, empty words.
Rainy days, sleeping alone…waking up alone.Starting over one more time, one more time.
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I’ll try again next week…or maybe the next.
Okay, here is my offering to make up for the absence of butterflies. The thing that always feeds my soul, even after the mushiest of apples.
Lovely verse Brooke. I find writing to be healing.
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Thanks, friend. Clearly I do too. 😑 Hugest hug and looking forward to more spring pics!!
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Thanks! 🙂
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Next time I take a bite of a mushy apple I will think of you. Then I will see if I, too, can turn the horror of the experience into something magical like you did. #mushyappletheory
Fuck butterflies, everyone knows they are beautiful. No offense to butterflies or anything because I know butterflies matter n’ shit, but I want you to tell me something I don’t know. To take me somewhere. To make me feel. That’s what I want. Whatever the context, your words always do that. Because that’s what all great writers do. #duh #eventhedarkpartsmatter #nobutterflieswerehurtinthemakingofthiscomment
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Ha! My claim to fame, it seems- mushy apples and rogue Rolos. But I’ll take a germ-infested Rolo over a lack-luster apple any day. No joke. Butterflies do matter. And I hope to write about them too someday. Just not today. It’s brutal, I’m discovering, to keep writing through the dark parts, when the dark parts are starting to forget the light of day. Not to say everything is ‘all dark, all the time’. I can barely make it through a run these days w/out taking yet another pic of a tulip or hyacinth. I might as well resign myself to walking when the peonies start to bloom. All to say, I’ll get there. Happier will happen. Just gotta keep trying… Love ya, girl.
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What Tanya said! Your words move me Brooke. You have a unique and stirring voice. And thanks for sharing that awesome cello music! Hugs and shit! Damn the butterflies, full emote ahead! 🙂
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Oh my god, that might very well be my favorite comment from you ever!! That so blesses me to hear, feel like I’ve lost it my voice a bit, to be honest. So thank you for the reminder and encouragement…emoting, full throttle ahead. 🙂
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You’re most welcome Brooke. Both your moving prose and Tanya’s hard hitting comments really stirred me yesterday, to the point of realizing I’ve gotten bored with my own writing. I hope to be as authentic and raw as you both. I wrote a short post about this to publish on Thursday if you’re interested. Hugs and shit! 🙂
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I think I like this comment even better than the last!! First, it makes my heart happy if I had any part in “stirring” or inspiring or whatever made you dig a little deeper. Second, if anyone gets how you feel, it’s this one. I’m just a wee bit tired/bored of writing about ‘sad’, which is exactly why I haven’t been writing. Thank god I have people like you and Tanya to set me straight and talk me through it. So, I shall do the same for you. I’m excited to read your post, and of course, I’m interested!!! Hugs and shit back 😉
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That is wonderful Brooke, Now I’m happy that I could warm your heart and give you something to look forward to. HNS. 🙂
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I liked it
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Thank you for taking the time to say so. 🙂
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You are welcome
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Clearly you need a better grocer. Try a walk in the woods with a pineapple next time. Or go to the seafood counter and get you a crabapple. There’s a quaint city on the California coast where you can get a Carmelapple. You know you are the apple of my eye, but some advice, while traveling — try to avoid the roadapples.
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Brooke, this is exactly what good poetry should be! This is the truth, the beauty in the pain, the baring of wounds and scars. It is simple and complex. It is absolutely beautiful!
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That means the world coming from the true poet herself!! I never feel like what I write is poetry, to be honest, cause I’ve never done it or know how. But guess there’s no right or wrong, just heart and soul. Miss ya and sendin’ lots of love!
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You are right on the money Beautiful Girl! Good poetry, truly good poetry, begins with truth. Knowing how does’t make a poem good. Good poems come from heart and soul, and you are all heart and soul. Sending lots of love! xo
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☺️ just feel honored coming from you. Truly.
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I was thrown into your poem with force and feeling, and I crawled out thinking, “Damn, that was good.”
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What about beautiful thing to read first thing in the morning. Thank you for taking the time to read and comment. It is clear you are a writer as well… “I was thrown into your poem with force and feeling.” Love that and am so glad it made you feel something so strongly. Excited to visit your blog!
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Well, now we are following each other – to be inspired and to inspire. Perfect. ❤
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Perfect indeed. ☺️
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Maybe not happy, but definitely hopeful. So happy to hear your voice:-)
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I’m glad you extracted hope from this, which doesn’t surprise me at all, you being you. I think it takes a rare breed to do so, not even sure I can. Trying though…:)
I’m excited to catch up on my reading, and yours will be the first. A giggle or three will be most welcomed. Big virtual hug to you!
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Maybe I should have said perseverance, which is a sister to hope:-) Yeah, come on over my way–let’s see if I can’t make you smile!
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That I definitely have! Oh, I’m coming, sister!!
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Nice!
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