Enough. This is stopping. If you have been following my blog, you get it. I have managed to spare you the excruciating details- the car accident, the shattered phone twice in two weeks, the neighbors calling the police on me my second night in my new ‘closet’. (I spoke above a whisper ‘disturbing the peace’, was the official complaint… Don’t get me started). It goes on and on.
I declared, when I drove out of Arlington, Texas, no more. I am going back to a place that, yes, has some tough memories, but it is the closest thing I have to home. I have friends there. I know where all of the gems are there. I love the weather there. My dog is there…
This morning I woke up, sad, hungover, depleted and I thought about the definition of insanity (as I often do). We all know it. Doing the same thing over and over…
So I’m trying something different.
I am going to ‘sage’ myself, inside and out. If you are going through similar bullshit and you are ready to stop the madness, you are more than welcome to join. I would actually love the company.
We are going to go beyond ‘self-helping’. This is going to be a complete and total do-over- a deep-cleaning- clean slate- ground zero- do over. Soap, sage, bleach, whatever the fuck it takes.
Starting today (or whenever you are ready). A cleanse. A drama cleanse. Thirty days of all things healthy, nurturing, gentle, relaxing, and fun (quiet fun, the neighbors…).
I’m not sure how this will go down. I have no plan, really. It’s kind of a big, impromptu experiment.
But rest assured, I have done almost every cleanse, read almost every self-help book, memorized almost every inspirational quote and researched almost all of the latest herbal concoctions, meditation methods, and breathing exercises out there.
Okay, ignore the current state of affairs, mine anyway. I clearly have not been implementing any of all previously mentioned. But I have a substantial amount of knowledge to be applied.
So, baby steps, attainable, realistic, baby steps.
I will do my best to not go too ‘esoteric’ on you and keep things grounded and practical. Although, some days, you just need some esoteric. Anyway, will do my best.
So, tomorrow- attainable, realistic, baby steps #1, 2, and 3.
Step #1: Five-minute journal. (App.fiveminutejournal.com) You do it all on your phone. Literally, it takes 5 minutes or less depending on the amount of self-reflection.
Step #2- Podcast of choice (even if just a portion): I’m going with Brene Brown. (will send you link and let you know what I think.)
Step #3. No drinking: I will grab a book, watch my favorite show/movie (happy please), call a friend or invite one over…keeping the noise level to a minimum. (the neighbors…).
I will send out tips and resources, what is working for me, what didn’t, and please do the same!
30 days. You can do anything for 30 days. That is what they say, right, break the old habits that no longer serve us, and formulate new ones that will.
So, here goes…