Quote Challenge, day 3 of 3: Feeling… to the point that defies logic.

I’m admittedly sad this is my last day to share the words I love most. I want to thank my dear virtual friend, brandewijnwords again for the inspiration he always finds a way to elicit.

I’m of course breaking the rules, again. I couldn’t decide on one..so I picked five. There are just too many. (more of my favorites, visit @summoningmagic)

My response got a bit intense, but I guess I’m a little intense, so…

“There are no half measures in love, only all or nothing. And if it doesn’t make you tremble and go mad at the very thought of its absence, you should move on.”
~ Beau Taplin//Move on

“I understand now that I’m not a mess but a deeply feeling person in a messy world. I explain that now, when someone asks me why I cry so often, “For the same reason I laugh so often- because I’m paying attention.”     ~ Glennon Doyle 

“She loves deep and fast. With all of herself, or not one bit. She’ll give people all of her light, in turn struggle to understand when they don’t pay that back. She wants you to think she can’t be hurt, but truth is, she gets hurt easier than most. She is fierceness and tenderness, within the same breath. This is her beauty. In her total lack of in betweens.”
~ Carson Patrick Bowie

“I have this terrible urge to be reckless…and I am dreadfully frightened of becoming old and having no memories at all. And I know climbing forbidden fences is wrong, so I’ll stick to falling in love with the wrong people and falling off metaphorical trees. I am just dying to do something worth remembering. I suppose there is no logic, not really…only that if I bleed now, I’ll have a lifetime left to heal.”    ~ Sue Zhao

“It is both a blessing and a curse to feel everything so very deeply.”
David Jones

I’m not sure where to go with these, other than to address the underlying theme- feeling…to a point that defies logic. It is, in fact, a blessing and a curse.

The blessing-when I feel love or joy or see something beautiful, it fills me up completely, every part of me. You can see it my eyes and hear it in my voice. I’ve been told it’s infectious, affecting, even altering the mood of those around me.

And this is exactly why it’s also a curse. When I’m hurt or sad or angry, I wear it like a cloak. It penetrates every part of me…as it does those around me.

It doesn’t last long. I can usually find ways to avoid getting caught in it…most of the time.

I wish it was something I could manage better. But I’ve always been like this. I’ve always seemed to get hurt easier than most and take on the pain of those around me. But this never stopped me. I risked it every time. I’d feel a connection with someone and immediately love them with everything I had. And I got hurt over and over again.

I get hurt, over and over again.

Except now, it has intensified. I was too reckless. I got hurt to the point that something shattered. And it still feels like there’s a gaping wound in the depths of what is now my foundation. I can’t see it, but I feel it, always.

Now, every time I feel something, good or bad, it grazes that part of me that’s now exposed. It’s become sensitive to the touch, so much so, almost everything brings me to tears.

So it’s not just when something hurts, but also when I see or feel something beautiful…a feeling I never thought I would experience again. But when it’s something painful, it immediately takes me back to that place, that time, when something shattered, and I’m afraid it really will take a lifetime to heal.

But what’s the alternative? I play it safe, detach myself, avoid the risk of getting hurt, even if there’s the chance that it could be something beautiful, that it could be magic?

I can’t. I won’t. I’ll keep trying, risking the fall, feeling everything.

Even if it means getting hurt, over and over again.

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16 thoughts on “Quote Challenge, day 3 of 3: Feeling… to the point that defies logic.

  1. Brooke, these are some of the most amazing quotes. I found myself in them as well.

    Thank you for adding such depth to my prompt. You elevated this way beyond what I could have hoped to see from you.

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  2. Thanks for sharing your deeply felt feelings and challenges Brooke. I appreciate your honesty vulnerability. I’m sorry for your deep pain, and hope it heals sooner than later, but glad you have the courage to keep putting yourself out there. Hugs!

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    • The pain is deep. But like I said, it has made me feel everything more deeply, which includes the beautiful things. I try to write about those, too, but I guess the painful parts still need the spotlight. As always, I love to know you are reading my words and they make you feel something. So, thank you for your thoughtful comments.


  3. My favourite is the last one by David Jones. The ability to feel deeply, whether it’s love, anger, or hilarity has often kept me up at night. Although I’d rather be awake and feeling than asleep and numb.

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  4. Ahh, Brooke. You beautiful human being, you. Your heart is rare, as is the one destined to love it and protect it, so keep taking the risk because you will find it. I promise. Thanks for sharing these quotes by the way. The last one, well, it kinda says it all.

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  5. “The blessing-when I feel love or joy or see something beautiful, it fills me up completely, every part of me. You can see it my eyes and hear it in my voice. I’ve been told it’s infectious, affecting, even altering the mood of those around me.”

    Not only in your eyes and voice, then, but in the words you pen. There is an infectiousness to your emotion, and it sweeps us all up in it. Your wound is our wound, your laughter our laughter. All of these quotes were so … affecting. So go ahead, silly girl, break all the rules (and climb the fences). Your heart is pure gold. No wonder you attract the best, and the best in each of them.

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